yeah i spelled hypocrite wrong, my bad . but im stitting here realizing that a lot of things i do always rearange itself to something else . i say i hate one thing, it turns around and i like that certain thing . its just like everyone really but i got it bad . everyone has the, (when we're in school) oh i hate school i wanna just go home i wish it was summer, (when we're in summer) omg, this is boring i wanna go to school . i do that, but ALOT . i say i dont like a certain band, in the end it turns out i do . happened with; hey monday, friday night boys, we the kings, all time low, etc .
but the biggest thing is what i say in my head, and what i eventually say on blogspot and twitter . for some reason, when im texting you over the phone, i just feel like you dont care about me anymore, and i lose it and just start getting bummed out // angry . and i start saying things i dont mean, [ im so fed up with this, im done ]. and a whole bunch of random shit like that, then once i stop texting you and after those first 30min, i forget everything and start missing you . and i wanna take back everything ive said . ugh, thats what i hate the most about myself, i can never stay straight with what my mind thinks . when im talking to you i "hate" you, when im not talking to you i love you . its just one big mess, im one big mess and im tired of that, im tired of myself and putting myself down so much . and it sucks having myself go through that every day, every night . ugh . i just hope you'll forgive me .
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